Something has been causing me a lot of emotional stress lately. Something from with in me, I suppose. I've always been good at figuring out other people, but it usually doesn't even cross my mind to figure out myself. I've been feeling this way for at least a week, and no, it's not that time of month. And be careful asking that, guys. It may cause you physical pain when a high-heel hits your head. ;-)
Lately I read an amazing book, The Celestine Prophet. The fictional storyline, and the points it makes are awesome. I highly recommend it. I read it in a day when my Internet was down, now I am slowly re-reading it and taking notes, because I think it can help me improve my emotional well being, and my way of interacting with other people. I guess those two things go hand in hand.
I am a scatter brain, I know. Don't feel obligated to continue reading this.
I have a 20 month old boy. He is amazing. You know how it is if you have/ had babies. I don't rock him to sleep regularly. He has learned to put himself to sleep. But he hasn't been feeling well. To see if he was tired I rocked him in a gliding chair. When I shifted him to see if he was sleepy he woke up a little. I was so touched I started smiling a big, goofy smile. I was beaming. When he focused on my smile he gave me a cheesy smile that I haven't seen on him before. I could tell how he was feeling. I started tearing up. Moments like this I need to create opportunities for. Moments like this I need to focus on. Moments like this I need to remember for always. I believe that moments like that one are the reason we are here, living.